To women who have been bridesmaids

I'm dying from ALS. Lately I have been thinking of the things I will never experience. None of my married friends asked me to be in their wedding parties and the remaining unmarried friend probably won't ask me because of my condition. I have maybe at most 3 years to live. I just want to get an idea of what it feels like to be asked to be apart of a very important day. I had always hoped that I would be in one wedding, because I wanted to know that I mattered a lot to a friend to let me stand up with them. I will never know that feeling, but I want to hear different stories of how it feels to be asked to be apart of a wedding.