Hey everyone! i have been on the site for a few weeks now but im not much of a blogger so this is my 1st post. I felt compelled to say something about my 2 proposals by my FH or lack there of in my eyes. Lets start with # 1.... this happened in November of last year. We were laying in bed talking and we started to dance around "marriage/children topic"...he decides to just blurt out... " i think we just need to go ahead & do it because we are not living right in gods eyes and we are going to end up in hell if we don't straighten this out". I agreed because we had been living together for a little over 2 years and were sexually active. So the wedding plans went from there....I didn't get an engagement ring from him due to financial strains so i just bought a cute 3 stone ring from Avon.
[# 2] yesterday evening [5/21/10] his sister text me and said they were having a celebration dinner @ buffalo wild wings in pearland because his niece graduated from kindergarten. I wasn't able to attended the graduation due to work so i was super excited to go, even stopped to get her a small cake. This particular BWW was also were my FH took me on our first date. When the waitress brought everyone's food out, instead of sitting mine down she put down a zales box. I was looking kinda of confused at that point. MY FH yells from across the table [mind you there are 8 people @ the table and im not sitting very close to him] "Will You Marry Me?".... i could barley hear him because of how loud it was in the restaurant so i said "HUH" as i was opening the box. He repeated his self a little louder and i said yes with a little smirk. he came around the table and i gave him and hug but inside i really wanted to cry. I was just disappointed about the way he did it. The thought & effort he put into getting everyone there & to have it @ the site was awesome. He is such a sensitive and kind person, i just expected a bit more of a personal proposal. My reaction really hurt his feelings and i feel bad about that but do my feelings not count in this either? Was i being ungrateful?
I was pretty much over it when i got up this morning but he is still really upset with me for being honest about how i felt. Which made me 2nd guess myself.. like maybe i should have just lied to him.
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